I have been MIA again.
I proudly shout my stats to anyone who cares to hear.
I am almost at a year. 11 months passed before I knew it - and I looked back and said - yep I am so much more removed from that addiction than I was.
But there are still habits. Yesterday when I stopped to get gas for my van - Tanny McVenture - I reached down between the seat and the door to release the fuel door latch...oh, wow! That little doohickey was in the Purple Guzzler - the vehicle I totaled in the days before I quit smoking forever. What a weird thing - muscle memory, or was it that I stopped at a gas station I hadn't stopped at in over a year or...where did that come from? So still I watch for those memories or things that might try to trip me up.
The boy is working hard. That situation remains very hard to deal with. We miss him at home and we all know it isn't safe for him to come home yet.
I have become a coach and started my own business.
I have accepted a contract position working mostly from home for a man and company that wrongfully terminated me many years ago. C'est la vie. I like using my brain again. And $40 an hour in in-kind payment how could I say no?
I also stood up for my family at my Home Depot job and learned that they will break the "rules" to keep me and I will now have a weekend day off to spend with my daughter and keep my job and might even be able to get promoted without committing to crazy full time availability.
I have been liveing life FIERCELY and I am so glad to see you all here and mostely doing well and so many people waiting for me over there in the 6% club.
I haven't smoked every single day for 249(?) days in a row.
Be well!
~Eli
(and I still can't type)
