I'm sortof shocked that we are at day 11.....I mean I know we are committed to it, but still I have to say that I sometimes feel like, "Ok, so how long until this fiasco ends.....when am I going to just go and buy them, I usually do......No, take that back----I always do----just because I waited 2 yrs to buy a pack once, doesn't dismiss the fact that I did buy them.....
There are also moments when out of the blue I'll realize that I'm not smoking and feel really proud.....or I'll smell a smoker and feel super happy that I don't stink like that anymore.....I'll see someone drive by with a cigarette hanging out of their mouth, and think that looks nasty, nothing cool about it....
The feelings can be very strong on both sides of the seesaw....happy to be quit on the one side, and wanting to smoke on the other.....
This is just my journal blog for day 11.....I hope to have more days of freedom, and then I can look back & see what strange happenings were going thru my head on day 11.....
Thanks for letting me just blog it out : )
PS>>>>>I do not feel like I am in any real danger>>>>>just blogging my thoughts : )) LOVE YOU ALL!!!
