I left early Monday morning and it is a 3 hr. drive to my friends at the beach. I know a lot of my supporters were worried about my quit as she is a smoker. I got there and went to let you know I got there ok and my heart was broken. Their internet was do ne and a had a empty feeling come over me. I told her about my new found family and how supportive you were and I never would have made it without you guys and my God. I prayed that I would be an example for her and not danger my quit. I kept getting the supportive phone calls for the website and she read them all and was really impressed.
I had a bag of sugarfree candy and cough drops and everytime she had a cigarette, I had a piece of candy. I was not really tempted and the smoke smell was nasty to me. I just kept telling myself I need to support her as she does want to quit and she is a dear friend but so far away. Two and a half days with her and I did not smoke once. I appreciate your prayers and support because I felt like I had a shield of protection around me. I even drank a wine cooler with her and wasn't tempted where I used to smoke if I drank any alcohol. My friend already has gotten chantix to quit and says she is gonna start taking it in a couple of days. I told her I wanted her to be on this website and everyone would support her.
You would think since her husband is on oxygen most of the time from smoking that she would be afraid of smoking. She is 60 years old and teaches learning disability kids. She is a sweetheart and a devoted Christian.
Dear family you are going to laugh at me. She lives near the beach but we never went. It has been about 6 months since we have seen each other and we lounged around in her pool and talked and talked. We are close like sisters. We tooks walks and we did her running around together. Her husband took us out to lunch yesterday at a restuarant where you eat outside so I could take cookie. They wanted me to stay until Saturday but I have to baby sit tomorrow for my 3 year old great grandson and Friday sign my final divorce papers.
Gee so much to catch up on. I talked to the bank yesterday and they verified that I was hacked and gave me the money back and opened a fraud case with the state police report no. Now I am only out of the $249.00 I had to pay microsoft. I still have to call them back because my system is still not right but not this week.
My son told me to thank you guys for the prayers. He is doing much better and didn't miss time from work. He is like me though he will not give up. Things could have been a lot worse. He could have been killed and I thank God that he was protected. The hackers didn't keep me from getting my money back so thank God for that.
Not smoking when I am by myself is pretty easy but the last 2 and one half days I would get up and ask God to give me strength and when I went to bed I would thank him for His strength to keep me from giving in. I have felt very close to my family here but really didn't know just how much until I could not reach out to you. Thank God that He led me to this site.
Glad to be back and it is now 25 days smoke free. Love you guys and thank you.
God bless
Carolyn
