Yesterday was ok. I slept for a gigantic chunk of the day but that is a typical Sunday for me anyhow. I really did not have cravings while awake. They were more just like little thoughts. Like "you never had your last cigarette because your body crashed and fell asleep the night before you quit". I told that voice to shut up. Then it crept back in with "you could sneak one and no one would know". I said I WOULD KNOW. Then I ignored that one. Then nothing really until I got into the car to go to the store. That is when I began feeling a little irritable. I tried deeply breathing. I closed my eyes and went to a happy (nonsmoking) place in my mind. Then I was fine until nighttime came. I keep vampire hours. I crash from sun up until 11:00 a.m. then I am up until sun up the next morning. I sometimes take naps but I have a child to be up with all week so the weekends, I catch up on sleep if I can. So I guess because nighttime is a lonely hour due to the fact that everyone else I know sleeps, it gets kind of lonely. I guess the cigarettes have been my company through those lonely nights because as I am awake and everyone else sleeping, I am staring to feel stressed and wanting to smoke. Still not as horrific as it has always been through other quits. Hell most of the other quits I did not make it until sundown. So any ideas of ways to cope through the car and night would be greatly appreciated.
