I feel like a loser. I was doing pretty well not smoking up until this past weekend. I got stressed out and reached out to my past habit to get me through. Smoking is not healthy, smart, or something that I can continue doing. I recognize that I must stop today and go back to working on being healthy. I treat smoking like saftey net and that is not good for me or fair to others.
I read the blog comments that have been made to me this last year and I know that they are right. Whether or not I smoke is up to me. No one is forcing me to smoke but me. All I can hope is that someday soon I can say, it has been a month since my last cigarette.
I know that my partner wants me to quit as does my family. I never thought I would have such an addictive mind for cigs.
