I am so so sorry to my Ex Family and my friend Thomas which is like a brother to me. It toke all I had to come on here and to admit I had slipped . I am so addicted to this pipe tobacco. I dont know what the hell they have in it but I am going to research it. I am not blamimg it on the weed. I take full responibilty. But I am more addicted to this than anything I have ever been addicted to before. I finally got 7 hours of sleep. I did not get bit last night. So anything moving in this apartment is me..lol.My Dad was an enabler last night . He thought it would help me make it trough the night. and help me feel better. Well I when I woke up this morning. I lokked at the cigs.. And I said i dont do this anymore. I crushed smashed tore and flushed the rest of the pack done the commode. and I let God down and mainly MYSELF. it did nit do anything for my self esteem. I dont like myself right now. I feel ugly. Right when I got up I put on a patch. Would someone PLEASE HELP me research pipe tobacco? I am so so sorry THOMAS. I knew what my soul was saying .. But i did not listen.. RAINING TEARS... LOVE ALL OF YOU ERMA
