I finally had a pretty darn good day today. The cravings weren't as strong as they had been and I actually thought of things other than smoking all day. My co-worker who hadn't had any trouble quitting started having a hard time. She said if we hadn't had our blizzard she would have broken down and bought smokes the other day. I told her she has come way too far and she would regret it. I told her about NML that you have talked about and shared some of the things I've learned and invited her to join EX. I said the 3rd day of quitting I found this place and your support and wisdom have kept me on track. Learning about my addiction has really helped me. She said talking to me helped her. I think it helped me even more. Hearing myself actually saying things out loud to someone has gotten me even more determined.
I sometimes feel like this road will always be a struggle and I worry I will get tired out. I realized that is stupid thinking and I need to look at this journey one day at a time. Today I actually kept my thoughts on track. I felt gratitude for finding this sight and feel very blessed for meeting all of you. I know not all days will go as smoothly as today did but I'll deal with those days as they come. Instead of spending today worrying about the whole road up ahead I was actually able to find a little enjoyment in today. It was great not spending my whole day fighting thoughts in my head. Maybe tonight I will actually be able to get some decent sleep. I still have weird vivid dreams without wearing the patch. Just gotta take the bad with the good.
Hope everyone has a wonderful night!
