So I spent my entire Christmas with a ton of smokers. The worst part is they had all been so supportive until yesterday, it's Christmas you quit is your problem they said. I get to treat myself and smoke as many cig as I want where I want they said more than once. It was only 55 short days ago that extra cigs because FILL IN THE BLANK was my idea of a celebration....and now I know that is just an excuse to have a day where you never have any withdrawls from the nicotine. However my junkie mind said something different...it said yeah Sarah go ahead it's the holiday you deserve just one, as I'm typing this my junkie mind, is saying just one. I know NOT ONE PUFF EVER is the only to stay free from my addiction, but my mind is fighting off all realizations. I have tried all the normal things to get it out of my head and nothing is working...I have to tell my self not today i won't smoke today, but my strength is fading...I feel like I'm falling. Please help any advise, or just some engourgment would be more help than I can say. I just can't believe how poorly I am doing through the holiday...hopefully this will pass soon, very soon!!
