I don't write too many blogs because I feel like I never have anything good to say. I long for the day when I can write a blog and say that I've had a great day with hardly any cravings or that I hardly thought of cigarettes. I feel that smoking is constantly on my mind and it's absolutely nerve wracking. I think it's causing me depression and anxiety. I have 45 smoke free days under my belt and I don't plan on giving that up. Smoking is not an option. I know eventually the cravings and thoughts will go away but hopefully I won't go bonkers first. I'm also worried that I'm suffering so much because I'm doing it all wrong. I'm wearing the patch but am I hurting myself more? I don't know. I just needed to come here and vent. I'm so thankful for this web site and the great people that have encouraged me along the way.
