Okay well I made it through yesterday without smoking. I had the urge only twice, but both times I thought back to my list... I didn't even have to pull it out & read it because as soon as I thought about #1, my grandma, who smoked all her life, got lung cancer, and died a few years ago... I got over the craving. I watched as my beautiful, loving grandma got so sick that she could not eat except to drink sips every now and then through a straw, and see her 5'4 frame go from being healthy if not a little plump, down to 70 pounds. That was the worst sight, and horrible to know she was going through hell, until she gave up.
I will not become that. I refuse to kill myself.
