mind games?????

[deders3750]

Cigaretts have no power over me!!! Yes they do? No they don't? Yes they do? No they Don't!!!! I want to smoke! No I don't? Yes I do? No I don't!!!!! Just one more? No? Yes? No!!!!!!! Can I do this? Yes I can? No I can't? Yes I can!!!!!! Is this how everyones mind is thinking????? Or am I just losing mine??? It is an ongoing struggle in my mind. I do not have any physical cravings which tells me my body does not want smoke in it anymore! But my mind is another story!!!!!! I even found my self driving circles around the gas station the other day. Good thing a Cop was not in the area, probably would of thought I was staking out the place!!! LOL So today is day two again, and would'nt you know I left my house without putting on a patch this morning. So of course that nico demon tried to tell me, " well you can just smoke today and start over again tomorrow!" Well F*** that!!! I am not starting over again, I am not smoking today!!!! I have nico gum in my pursh and will be chewing till my teeth hurt if I need be!!!!!! So I might be blogging all day if I am feeling really weak. With all of your support and my will power I can do this!!!!!! God bless all!!!!!