Today was good! No major cravings or many psssts from my brain. It was quiet. I am reading through the Freedom from Nicotine, the journey home still- finding that I've read something, but then need to go back and re-read. Seeing it with different eyes based on where I am on the journey. Finding my username ironic now, as the author describes quitting as what happened when I let nicotine run my life. I am in recovery now! That is the term- as I am seeing the world differently now. Slower, calmer, not as many emotional ups and downs as I balanced between each nicotine puff.
I do have this fear of failure that washes over me and makes my heart race sometimes. I was reading about how I need to have patience with myself. and to have shorter victories- STOP thinking about "quitting forever" but instead being healthy and clean today. just today. And then I keep that up all day and then its bedtime.
Anyway, I'm doing it!
