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Its Time!

markermomma
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So as of today I have been smoking 26 years. I am only 38! Geez... when I put that in writing it seems so much worse! I have attempted to "quit" many times... when I went to the military ( we found ways to sneak) Both times I was pregnant (I secretly snuck throughout... hubby and dr knew but noone else) and many other failed attempts since. My boys break my smokes, hide them and yell and cry when I smoke. Beg me to quit daily and I always make excuses why I havent or cant or wont! WELL... Now is the time! I am ready! I used to love coffee and a smoke, that was my biggest excuse to not quit. Now... I absolutely HATE the taste! I HATE the smell! And I HATE that the thought and action of smoking has consumed me! I have spent so many hours in total sitting on my back porch smoking rather than with my kids enjoying all the moments that I will never get back. I have made my kids and husband wait for me in the car while I smoke after eating out, shopping, a movie or on vacation. Its pathetic really. I have also used stress as an excuse to fail at quitting! It seems every single time I havd tried to quit, one of my boys have become ill or injured, landing them in Childrens Hospital after I have been successful for 2 to 3 weeks.... I use that as my excuse to stop trying to quit. NO MORE! I am working on becoming a health coach but I cant succeed at that while I secretly smoke. Cant help someone lose weight and build healthy hanits when I am a sham myself. Today is my first step to throwing out the smokes and excuses together. Today I create a new, better, healthier life for me and my family! Today I relearn how to live and enjoy living! I am ready and up for this challenge! And I WILL SUCCEED! I look forward to being "A QUITTER" I will be proud to be a quitter! For once it is ok to be a quitter!
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