Today is also my husband's Mark and my 20th wedding anniversary, we've been together 27 yrs, through thick and thin. Both of us were married once before, I was 16 and not pregnant the first time I got married, my mom signed so I could marry. I thought that life would be so much better but was I ever wrong but 13 yrs later and two kids, I ended the marriage, life was way too short to be scared all of the time of saying something wrong and being beat around or having your furniture smashed, our daughter missed alot of this where she was in school, she was 8 at the time but our son was only 4 so he saw more than any child should see, plus his father worked away alot and when he was home, he treated our daughter beautifully and our son like crap so I decided to take back my life which certainly wasn't easy by no means but I was at the end of my rope, that's how it was when I quit drinking 5 and a half yrs ago, I had enough and the same with smoking, enough was enough. I wish that with each situation that I would've acted sooner and saved a bunch of heartache but at least I can say that I am happier in my second marriage, nothing is perfect in this life but he treats me like a Queen even if I don't deserve it sometimes and I try my best to treat him like a King because he's a good man and as far as drinking and smoking goes, I waited until I had health issues before I brightened but I did, I can't go backwards and beat myself up because I should have quit them both earlier but I can be thankful that I am now a living a much healthier lifestyle. There's been another death by cancer this wk end that brought back alot of memories from my first marriage, alot of people that I haven't seen in yrs that my first husband and I used to chum with, these are memories I don't let come to the surface very often because I don't like to go back to that time but the good news is that I won't smoke over it or anything else because I will protect my quit with my life because my life depends on it, so my friends and fellow Exers please remain vigilant each and every day and protect your quits while enjoying your precious freedom, we can't go back and fix anything but we sure as hell can go forward and have the best life possible, so keep on stacking up your smoke free daysand if you haven't quit yet maybe it's time to take back your life while you can before it's too late!
Marilyn 742 DOF
