I haven't been blogging or commenting much lately, but I have been here lurking in the shadows all the same, and seeing all your Thanksgiving posts made me think. I am thankful for many things and one of them is this site. Since quitting smoking I've had a few tests but nothing really major like a lot of people here have had, and I wondered how I would handle it, when something more significant occured in my life. Well, now I don't have to wonder as it's happened, and crazily enough I actually am thankful for it! Over the last couple of months I thought I had found someone special who understood me and I was so happy, so when I found out maybe they weren't who I thought it really threw me. The thing is, I know that if I had smoked I wouldn't have felt better, I in fact would have felt worse, and I know that because of this site! I still feel hurt and sad but I also feel a sense of self respect and accomplishment I never would have felt if I was still smoking. Hearing all your stories and messages of support has really reinforced my committment to myself and I don't know if I would have gotten this far without all of you and this wonderful site in general. Before coming here my first instinct would be to hide all my pain behind a cloud of cigarette smoke, and in the process make myself feel worse but I can truly say that right now, that is the last thing I want to do! I hope I feel better soon, but even if I don't I still have my quit and THAT makes me feel good!
91 DOF!!!!
