About me
hellow. Where to start is the begining I guess. I started smoking back in grade school. I would do anything to be like my big sister and her and her friends and seems like alot of us smoked then. No talk about second hand smoke. No congress telling the tobacco company's what to do except make money and create jobs. No brains I guess because my parents both quit smoking soon after the "cancer scare" so as to set a good example for all three of their children who all of smoked anyway. No excuses just a quick me. 47 years old oxygen at night, asthma and a whole list more of physical crap. I haven't read too many peoples stories yet but the ones I have read are so young . Less then a decade of smoking behind them. Where are all you guys my age with three and a half decades of smoking? Are you all dead? I feel like it. Was trying to sleep but awoke from an choking spell. F... U PHILLIP MORSE!!!!!!! I'm scared, alone and cant sit in front of a computer Long because it causes my chronic pain to get worse and yes smoking is the worst thing I can do for my chronic pain. I may sound like I am feeling sorry for myself but I am just mad!!! Mad at myself mostly. Stopping this bad habit is the only thing in life I haven't been able to do and I have changed a lot of bad behaviors. I am no saint here. I helped a lot of people along the way too. I use to work in the mental health field for 15 years. Gave it my all. Tried to do by right by each and every patient that I met. I was very discussed when inpatient hospitals changed to non smoking. Just what people at the worst day of their life needs, "yes we can help you, but you have to give up the smokes for a few weeks." Right good plan. Then the nurses most addicted to their credit cards would say "they really don't want help because they are using smoking as an excuse not to admit themselves." Can you imagine that? Now who were the sick people there? Not the people in need in my mind. Anyway. this is me THE GOOD SMOKER as a old doctor of mine use to call me. I now think of myself as EMPATHY because I have always tried to give so much of it and think we all should live with in that kind of mind frame. My new psychologist is a real pain but I need as much help not smoking as I can get so I'll go meet mister COLD COOL AND INTELLECTUAL. Nice to meet you all. I cant right often but I will give it a try. Thanks for your time. Looking for some of you 'Old TIMERS" with some success behind you. later, The Good Smoker.
