One day at a time

[MePlus3]

I love my quit but the thought of being quit years from now scare me. As if I've officially let it go for good (that's what I want though!) Is that what I was thinking when I slipped 30 something days into my last quit? I don't remember but I caught the thought this time and trying to do something about it before it gets to me again. Anyone else had that scary "future" thought? I know it sound crazy to be afraid of something I want so badly I hope I'm making sense for lack of better words. I know years from now it'll be alot easier and if it get any easier than it already is for me that'll be nice! Sickerettes were never my "friend" so why do I feel this way? Why am I afraid of the thought of letting them go for good?