We all deal with life... sometimes it hits harder than we are able to handle. In our quits of 1 day or 990.. there are days whn you wonder does it really matter? In that moment your world seems to be falling apart.. in mine it's my mom and I . She is 80 and constantly puts me down ... I am usually the only family member who helps do everything. Our arguing escalated outta control today (verbally) they call it Caretaker burn out.. it doesn't excuse my actions.
I guess it's foolish to think my little issue has any bearing or comparison to the struggles many of you my friends are facing ..
We are all human.. and we try and work at struggles and we get up and sometimes get knocked back down . It comes as fear or pain or heartache or grief but it comes .
and nico demon just jumps right in. She don't care you don't care... WRONG
it wouldn't take much to say it doesn't matter and throw Smoking back on top but NO... NOPE .. SINAO.. we must protect the things we have made progress on ... non smoking is one of our greatest choices.,
So I Choose to come to my community that does care and understands and say ouch my heart hurts today but I've given my word to God myself and many of you... it does matter that I don't quit my quit. This is one of my tools..come to you all and put it out there and let it go. I do matter it does matter and I feel you all out there saying this too will pass!
Thank you for letting me share.
we MUST ALWAYS PROTECT OUR QUIT!!
I promise to protect mine today
cindy
