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The Next Battle for My Life

Stac2
Member
2 23 10

Dear EX Family,

I am so sorry for my long absence from the site.  I pop in here and there but not nearly enough.  My computer finally went south so I have to use an ipad to write and it sometimes doesn't want to cooperate.  GRRRRR.  Moreover, since Feb I have been battling post surgery on my knee for a torn meniscus which is not healing properly and has been really putting me down for the count.  But now I must come forward and be honest with you all for another reason I have been absent.  I have been very depressed because during the first year of my quit, I lost 65 lbs while quitting smoking.  I felt better than I had in my life.  Then, at some point, I went through some very difficult mental and physical problems and ate my way through them.  I am now 150 lbs overweight and that is no exaggeration.  I started a weight loss program today and am very motivated to get this weight off because I do believe it is partly related to my knee issue.  I just wanted to come here and be honest about my hiding for so long because I have been hiding behind food.  TO ALL NEWBIES - my weight gain was NOT caused by my quit.  Again, I reierate, as stated above I actually lost weight during my quit.  I love you all and am grateful to you for helping me get my life back without cigarettes.  Now I could sure use some prayers to help me in this second battle to save my life because I have been slowly killing myself with food.  I come with an open heart and want all of you to know you have been on my mind and heart all the time.  I just have been in a dark hole and am doing my best to peek out and come into the light and win the second battle for my life.

Love to all,

Stac

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