Well ding dang I think life is getting better without the cigarette in hand. In the beginning of my journey it was really hard to go anywhere that sold cigarettes or places where people smoke. I used to go into stores or gas stations and seem all those cigarettes would jump in my vision and make me really wish I could have one. I would get the feeling that I was missing out and being deprived but yay not anymore. I just realized that I can actually go into a store now and they don't phase me one bit and I don't give it another thought. Up until now I have avoided all smokers and hang outs of smokers because I was afraid I would be tempted. So another BIG WOW WEE for me is I hung out with my neighbor yesterday for a while and she smokes and I am happy to report I did not want lynch toward her or go into attack mode and to try and snatch her smoke haha and I didn't try to jump in her lap to smell the smoke either haha (never did it but sure thought if a few times) lol. I am starting to notice I am having way more better days without even thinking of smoking than bad days. I still get craves from time to time but figuring that is just part of life and they seem to be easier to manage. Hmmm maybe I am on the right road to becoming a grown up EXer someday, okay may still have a ways to go but I am enjoying life without a cigarette in hand. I am so grateful for all the good things that this non-smoking life has brought me. I am thankful that my breathing has really gotten much better. I actually am not dreading having my next PFT done and excited to see how much my breathing has improved. I am thankful that I can exercise regularly and still breathe, walk and talk all at the same time, now that's a big accomplishment for me. I am forever grateful that I have more time to spend with family and actually doing activities. I also am grateful that I don't stink anymore and glad I don't have to give up fun time to go hide and smoke. I am very thankful to everyone for all your love, care and support through my journey. Yep I am becoming a very happy non-smoker. Still taking it one day at a time and enjoying each day won. I will NEF day one and don't ever want that day again. Oh yea I almost forgot so say I am grateful that it only took my husband 136 days to acknowledge my quit and to say how proud he was of me quitting smoking. Someone pinch me I think I am dreaming lol. So hang on newbies as I am finding elders are so right when they say it will get better with time. And it is finally getting better and easier as they promised. So stay strong!! NOPE!! And I don't do that anymore to get through the tough times and then you will be stacking the days too. If you find your struggling DON’T SMOKE AND COME HERE FOR HELP so you don’t have another day one, make all your days be won and free from slavery.
