Last night when my parents came over for dinner (mom is a smoker) I did really well. Today I was supposed to go over to thier house. I was going to fix mom's puter than go out to dinner at 7pm. Well on the way down to thier house I kept thinking when mom lays down for a nap I will steal a cig. 20 minutes thinking that I turned around and drove home. I called my mom when I got home and explained way I wouldn't be there. She has never quit so she said she would have let me have one. She also told me that if I just smoke one or two that would be ok. I explained to her that is not ok. If i have one I will be right back up to a pack a day in a week or less. I cried so hard. She even tried to convince me to come to dinner and she wouldn't bring her cigs. I told her we will try again next week.
I feel soooooo bad for having done that to my parents. They recently moved back to Colorado after being gone for almost 4 years. I just knew I could not face this temptation and win today.
I know I hurt my mother. I need to make it up to her. Hopefully next week I will be able to.
The last four days didn't go to waste but will my relationship with my mom ever be the same?
