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Day 1 on the newly tobacco-free campus

changemesoon127
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Oh, I was an anxious, nervous, withdrawaling mess! I thought the lozenges would help me through my withdrawals, but they didn't. The highest mg they had for them in Meijer last night was 4 mg, and I guess I use way more than 80mg a day and my guesstimate was waaaayy off. I still powered through my first two classes with the lozenges (4.5 hrs!), and I began just sucking on my ballpoint pen and exhaling as if it were my vape pen. I finally got enough time to get off campus, have some drags, and get to my next class. Towards the end of the class, I needed to suck on my pen again, but used NO LOZENGES! But once I got off campus to go home, I probably smoked 2 cig's worth on my vape pen (my body tends to do that to catch up). Even with vaping so much, I was still needing to continuously suck on my pen on the whole bus ride back home, and needed to smoke again once I got home. It was funny how at the end of my last class when I was sucking on my pen, I could faintly feel a nicotine buzz, even though it was just a bic ballpoint pen (I guess my brain really needed it).

BUT since I got home and got done vaping, I was able to power through TWO HOURS without vaping again, AND without going completely nuts and being an irritable mess as I normally would be.

And throughout all of today, I had moments I could feel people's prayers being answered for me to be powering through these withdrawals without almost antisocial irritability. So a HUGE THANK YOU to all those that prayed for me!!!

I take today as only a glimpse of what my first day of completely quitting will be in 26 days. But as long as I am connected with you guys and am supported by all of you through it, I have a feeling I can really quit for life, and I am so grateful that God led me to finding you guys. Much love to all the prayer warriors out there, you guys are my rock for quitting, seriously (but I would never ask for prayers bc that's a great way for the enemy to mess with you guys for keeping me away from this dang nicotine that is causing me such health problems; if God calls you to it, then He believes you can withstand the temptations, but if He doesn't and you just pray for me bc it's just on a list of intentions, I would recommend you to stop after a couple times). <333

Questions: How do you add friends back, and see who added you?

 

Much love,

Filia

PS. To all of you who have already quit: NEVER QUIT THE QUIT! IT'S SO NOT WORTH IT even though it seems so at the time. Keep it going, and keep strong. We're much bigger and better than this dang thing we call "nicotine" that keeps inviting us to hang out, and which we know is too toxic for us to keep hanging out with.

PPS. I really, really, really tried to power through longer after 2 hrs, but I was getting nauseous due to the withdrawal and ended up vaping 2 cig's worth. :///

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