Day 271

[Alyssadone]

So the past 3 days I have had very VIVID smoking dreams. Not sure why all of a sudden this is happening. In my dreams I am enjoying the cigarette at but, then I feel this HUGE sense of disappointment in myself (still dreaming).  When I wake up, I have mixed feelings.  I am bummed I did not get to enjoy the cigarette and the fake party I was having so much fun at but, I am also very happy I did not smoke and I am still smokefree.  Not sure why this is happening so much this week but the sense of relief I feel when I wake up and realize I did not smoke gives me that extra boost to keep going. Otherwise that feeling of disappoinment in my dream will become real and that is not a feeling I want to have.  Happy Saturday everyone!! N.O.P.E.