I am having terrible cravings. It's like my brain can't focus on anything but how much it wants nicotine. It feels like there's a toddler in my head whining and crying and screaming "I want a smoke!" (Wouldn't we be alarmed if a little kid actually said that!)
I am trying to distract myself but I am having a hard time being a very present mom to my kids. I love them dearly but I just can't focus today and when they start whining about something the cravings get so much worse. I've fed them, sent them to the bathroom, and just asked them to go play on their own. I feel terrible about it, but I also don't feel like a very sane human being today.
A bit of good news, my quitting has inspired my best friend to quit. She was a pack and a half to two pack a day smoker, so I know this is going to be a really hard road for her. My hubby is trying to switch to vape, he doesn't feel he's in a position to quit completely right now and I understand that. At least he's on the e-cig, which doesn't smell bad.
Today is going to be rough. I want to try to go for a walk later, see if that helps. I will say that I definitely breathe a little easier, and I feel physically better. Just mentally this is kicking my butt. STAY STRONG!
