Today is 1 year anniversary of my quit and 2 year anniversary of my nutritional journey, my health journey.
Few major things happen this year and yet I never found a reason or the desire to smoke, why? Because there is no reason for me to smoke, I am done making excuses, I am done smoking. I had made a choice not to smoke, I made a commitment to not smoke and so it is.
The first 4 months of my quit went calmly along no major issues occurred. Spent my time gardening, chopping and stacking wood. Continued on with my work outs and walking and at sometime I started running. Smoking was not an option for me.
And then things started happening......
July - husband had a heart attack – he survives. Due to his health, for the first time on our wedding anniversary we were not able to have our yearly anniversary camping trip. Smoking was not an option for me. Husband still smoking, so sad.
August – September Husband still not well enough to do any thing, no boating, fishing, shrimping or crabbing done this year. These are our hobbies that we do together it was life changing not to be able to do this things. We did take the motorhome out for a few days and did the 101 loop, husband not able to leave motorhome but he was able to do a little sight seeing from the motorhome. Smoking not an option.
October – November My mom had fallen at her home and was not able to get up, she was not found for 2&1/2 days. She broke her hip and is recovering well at this time. P.S. She was was willing to move to a retirement center after this happened, she has her own apartment and can live independently but the help is there when/if she needs it. Smoking still not an option.
December – January My 30 year son was diagnosed with two malignant brain tumors just a few days before Christmas.
When these major events occurred my realization on how much freedom I had being a non smoker became more and more evident. I did not need to worry how I was going to get “my fix”. I need not have the need to run away from the problem so that I could calm down and think about what I needed to do. I realized that was just an excuse to go get my fix.
Don't give up on your quit. The withdrawals do go away and you too someday will understand the freedom of being a non smoker.
I am very happy to be here at my 1 year quit anniverasy. It brings tears to my eyes, tears of happiness that I have rid myself of such a deadly poison. Even during this time of such great stress I can take moments and be happy for what I have accomplished. Thank You for walking with me on this journey
“Once the determined individual has their mind made up and fully committed to let nothing stand in their way, they can break off the chains of addiction. It only takes that one firm decision and to make it work no matter how difficult it may be in the beginning. The problem is compounded when people have a hundred excuses to feel sorry for themselves. They revel in their own misery and feel special for their suffering.” - this a a quote from my favorite doctor
I will continue to work on my excuses that have stopped me from becoming the healthiest me. I love feeling healthy! I will continue on with my health journey, it has been a beautiful journey, well wo
I was going to back and delete some of the above to make it shorter, but "let it be" keeps going through my head so I am going to listen to myself and Let It Be.
