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Here's my plans for the day!

smorgy8513
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First of all, my big boy cat (Kiko) has not been well.    He wasn't eating or drinking and I have been pushing fluids from the syringe into his mouth.     Also did some watered down soft food.     We went through this a couple of years ago and he came out ok.       I've been so worried......well, this morning after some water and then some food from the syringe he went to the kitchen and drank from his bowl!    YEAH!     I'll keep an eye today and keep pushing fluids and food until I see that he has gone "potty" but feeling better about this all.

The drs are going to try something different for the degenerative stuff in my neck.     I've had an epideral... no luck.     Now this morning they will give me a shot in a nerve on 1 side of the spinal column up in my neck.    If that helps at all they will do the same on the other side (later).   If that works they will burn those nerves and (God willing) I will be pain free for a while.       So, no pain pills this morning.     No ice pack this morning.     And I'm hurting!     They are going to ask me if I have 5 or above pain and I will definitely be able to say yes.   Let's hope this works.

This afternoon Sis wants me to take her to dr to get her back on some meds that they had to take her off of when she was in hospital last time for BP and heart.       Then I'll take her out for lunch as Monday was her 84th birthday.        She told me she thinks that the next time she goes to hospital she won't come home.    That makes me feel guilty about getting ready to move next August to New Mexicao.

So, enough whining for today.

Don't forget to ride the Freedom Train tomorrow........I'm planning something different for the ride.

And then......THIS WEEKEND IS OUR WINTER BON FIRE!!!!    If you are a Newbie and haven't experienced a bonfire you will be amazed and will love all the fun we have!

OK....gotta run.

Love to my EX Family!

Sharon

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Gone but Not Forgotten. RIP I've thought so many times about quitting, done a few quits with the longest being 9 months. Blamed that relapse on my sister because she broke her hip. This time I feel different 8/5/13:The first day of my forever quit. About me? Well, I'm old enough that I am going to semi-retire (work 2 days per week) starting in October, 2013. I have 2 grown sons, 2 older sisters, 2 cats. I'm passionate about my work, love mystery books. I give all the glory for my work, any successes I may have to God and prayer. I have a lot of people praying for me right now and that is where I feel the strength. I also am finding strength, information and support from this site. I hope I can offer some of that to others when I get past the newbie stage. 9/4/13 30 days today!! I've learned so much since I've been coming here each morning (and sometimes at night). Words: choose, not try-----decision----not giving anything up, but gaining---I'm worth so much more than a cigarette. These are only a few of the pearls of wisdom that I've taken to heart. So many great people. I learn something each and every time I come on here. I'm learning about myself too. I teach clients everyday that feelings are feelings and ok to have, but I've always fought that concept myself. I heard when I was little "what have you got to cry about?" so I learned not to cry. If anger was shown it meant going back and shutting the door 10 times quietly or maybe getting the wrath of my parent. So, I learned not to cry, not to feel anger. I'm learning now that I have those feelings and that smoking pushed them aside and down. They are there and real. Now I'm trying to learn how to show and express them instead of going off by myself for a smoke. I have supporters. The biggest pride is what I feel in myself. With each day I wake up I can say "Today is day ____" and I feel proud. Not the kind of pride like I could never fail. That is a realization and why I need to be aware and conscious each moment. No, smoking doesn't solve anything. And today I am proof that I can go on without the crutch of a cigarette! 8/5/17 4 Years Quit!!! Who would have "thunk" it? I never took responsibility for my relapses, always blamed whatever it was that occurred. So, when I quit on 8/5/13 I knew I REALLY wanted it to work, knew that I needed as much support as I could get but I think deep down I was afraid this one wouldn't take either. So, I did as much positive as I could: Chantix, prayer, atomic fire balls, telling friends AND coming to the EX many times throughout the day. The people here became my friends as well as my family. I could share when I was struggling and get encouragement. Have there been struggles in my life since then that would have "caused" me to smoke in the past? Of course! Life goes on and troubles happen even when you don't smoke. I lost my sister who was also my best friend, my diagnosis of lung cancer and the treatment that has gone on since then (dr tells me "not curable, but treatable"). Would smoking make any of those things better? OF COURSE NOT! But when you're an addict the brain tells tons of lies to you..... Newbies: use the resources that the EX provides to you and you will have major milestones too. I thank my family here and love each and every one of you that have helped me! Too many names to mention.