Hi EX Family! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season and are on track for a fabulous 2016. It really is going to be better than last year, I promise! Unfortunately I discovered on Christmas day that my husband has been cheating on me. Needless to say I was and am shattered. I had some suspicions, but I never expected that he would betray me so hurtfully. I thought he was a loyal man and he had my complete trust, which makes dealing with this even more difficult. I will have to think long and hard before I open my heart to another man completely. I have been packing up my apartment and my daughters and I are moving back to northern Maine to be with our family up there. I have always wanted to move back to Maine, but I thought we would be moving as whole family unit, not a single mom and her daughters, so it is bittersweet for me. I'm happy to be moving "home", but I'm sad that what I thought was the love of my life will not be there to share it with me, or anything else, again.
Thankfully I have a lot of support from my family up there in Maine and from my mom who lives in Arizona. Everyone has been calling to check on us and ask us what we need, which just brings happy tears to my eyes for once. Thankfully I have chosen to use this negative experience as an opportunity to strengthen my quit and my self love. This wasn't my fault. I am worthy of good things in life, even though this has happened to me. Believe me, the thought of smoking crossed my mind, but thanks to the skills I learned here at EX, from all of you, I chose to stay free instead. I will not make this storm even darker and more shameful by smoking, that is not going to happen. I am strong in my resolve to stay free from nicotine, this has just been one more hurdle to help me to prove how strong I am to myself.
You guys probably won't be seeing me around for a little bit after Friday, I'll be getting us settled in to living with my Dad and his girlfriend and they do not have internet access, so I'll have to go to my brother's house to get my EX fix. We will also be very busy with our new lab puppy, Niecy, who my brother is taking care of, until we get up there. I'd been wanting to get a dog since my beloved Gemini died in 2014 and I figured why not now? She is the niece of my brother's two wonderful labs, hence the name Niecy... She will keep us busy, active, and feeling love, which is what we all need right now. I'll post a pic on my page when I can so you can see all of us.
I just wanted to share my story with all of you. Bad things in life are going to happen, it is inevitable. Keep your mantras handy and hang onto your quits no matter what, because you are worth the effort. There is absolutely nothing in this world that is worth smoking over. Thanks for reading and I wish you all the best.
Cory
