I'm proud of myself and grateful that I've learned a little on my journey. I've been able to have a day where I feel guilty for being a grump with wife and yelling at the cats and being super sore from a cat bite and from working out too much and being lazy at work and obsessing...
Guess what? I didn't have to smoke. Maybe a passing thought but I feel like the obsession has been lifted. I have some self doubt and I'm not always practicing or willing to embrace mindfulness. BUT often I feel that everything is the way that it's supposed to be and even if I'm not there yet I KNOW the path to either accepting or changing that stuff that bothers me.
I believe that what I've wrote above I could take a picture of and that thinking is goal producing.
Willingness not willpower. You all are awesome.