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Day 8 of my NOPE journey

piper
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Today I woke up and it was a struggle clearing the lungs again.  That is alright because I know that it is taking a while for the lungs to clear.  I smoked for long enough for this garbage to work it's way back up (and against gravity) out of my lungs.  I will be patient.  It will get better.  I can take deeper  breaths and for that I am thankful.  One moment at a time.  That is why I was asking if anyone likes to meditate.  Meditation teaches you how to live in the moment.  Just you and the moment and nothing else exists in that short period of time.  Not bills, not cigarette drama, not pesky neighbors, or crappy jobs, etc.

     I started meditating about 2-3 years ago.  I was diagnosed in 2005 with depression, bipolar, panic/anxiety disorder, ADHD, etc....  They had me taking a bunch of medication and none of it worked and most just made me sleepy and sluggish.  I was sleepy and sluggish from the depression alone.  I told them that I did not need medication to make me sleep all day.  I was doing that and that is why I went to the psychiatrist in the first place.  I watched a movie called "The Secret" and then (without the movie mentioning it), I started to try meditations on youtube.  At first it felt awkward but I knew that I had to step out of my comfort zone because it was not really as comfortable as I pretended it to be.  I am sure that we all are not comfortable with change but when your comfort zone becomes a prison it is time to make some change.  So then I mastered the newness of the meditiations.  Next, I had to conquer the worst opponent of all.  My own thoughts and making them leave me alone long enough to benefit from the meditation process.  That took more effort and a little more time but finally accomplished.  It is an experience that I think everyone did it right they would make it a regular part of everyday.  It did what the medications did not do.  I will stop there but there is definitely more to come.  In the meantime, I would like for you all to try the Calm app.  It wasn't how I started but I wish I would have known about it because it is definitely easier.

     Now as far as inspirational stuff.  I stumbled on a youtuber that was, at first, so full of positive energy that I thought he was too weird for me to watch.  I did not plan to watch any more of his stuff, just like any other youtuber that does not fit me.  Then later that night (NOT LIKE any other time), I started to think about his videos and my choice not to watch them.  I realized that someone can't really be TOO positive, and weird is good.  Then I realized that while his energy was SUPER positive, mine must have been supernegative for me to feel as uncomfortable as I did, to the point where he felt strange.  That bothered me and I decided I wanted to feel more like him and so I began watching as many of his videos as possible.  I look forward to every post.  I can not wait for the next one most days.  I would really like for all of you to watch a few and let me know what you think.  Please?????  Thanks!!!  I know you all will because you are all so great!!!

Infinite Waters Diving Deep Video (please watch some more, like (if you do) and subscribe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnlMpPipnQk

     I just want you all to know he does not even know I am recommending him.  This is not like SPAM, it is just a suggestion because his videos make me feel so awesome and motivated.  I hope others may also have this result.  Every human should feel good and be happy.

    Enough for now!!!  Hope you all enoy and sorry it was so lengthy but I wanted to share and I am sure I skipped many cigarettes and missed numerous cravings because I was busy writing this. 

     ENJOY THE REST OF TODAY and STAY SMOKE FREE until next time.  Much love to ya'll!!!

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