Well, today wasn't too bad. I signed the termination letter and turned in my computer, phone, etc. The party was really nice -- both my current boss and my former boss said very nice things about me, and I don't think anyone there suspected that I'd actually essentially been fired. My boss and I spearated on excellent terms. I told her that she's an excellent manager because she really knows her stuff, she's not a micromanager, she's available when she's needed, and when she has to do hard things (like she's had to do with me) she's done it with great kindness. We're friends on Facebook and we'll stay in touch. We agreed we make better friends than manager/managee.
And the good news is that I have a second interview on Tuesday with the first company I saw, and when I checked my cell phone this afternoon, I had two messages from companies that saw my resume and want to talk to me. So I'm hopeful that something will work out.
Tomorrow it's a rare all-day bingo with my good friends and that will be a good way to decompress, and then Sunday I'm going to spend the day working my finances and various scenarios. And I'm going to clean my house because this last week I have been horrible about keeping it up. But I've gotten through this in the best way it could have worked out, and my dignity is intact. I'm totally out of my comfort zone right now, but as Giulia pointed out, our comfort zones aren't where we grow. And I didn't smoke, I didn't want to smoke and even though I thought about it more than usual, it was just passing thoughts. And as I write this I'm taking a deep breath -- which is something I couldn't do 276 days ago without massively coughing.
Thank you for all your support my friends, and know that seeing your positive responses really helped me get through this week. I started out in a state of humiliation, but I've ended it feeling that there's something good ahead. Love to you all.
