Thanks to all who commented on my last post! With your support I stayed strong and did not smoke. It was great to have so many people confirm that crying is not a weakness and nobody thought any less of me for feeling and expressing my emotions, as this is something I really need to work on. Something Giulia said "You can either wake up tomorrow feeling proud, or feeling ashamed'", really hit home for me as I am sick to death of waking up to the thought of another day 1. Yesterday was a big day for me as I had a lot going on. It was the first time driving since my quit and that has always been a trigger for me, plus I was meeting up with someone who is generally a pretty awesome person, which quite often makes me feel inferior (another trigger) plus I had my vocal lesson which believe it or not is also a trigger lol I wasn't sure if I was ready for all this yet but I made sure to prepare myself in advance by thinking positive thoughts about how I don't want to smoke, and all the comments on here REALLY helped with that. Amazingly I not only made it through all of that without smoking I actually managed to enjoy myself, which I honestly didn't think was possible this early into my quit. I was scared that I would find myself pulling up to a shop and buying a pack without even realising it, but the whole drive home I kept thinking how great it is that I don't smoke and I wasn't even slightly tempted and if I had needed to go to the shop for some reason I know I could've done it without worrying that I'd 'accidentally' buy a pack. One of the major things that helped was the thought of coming on here and telling you all my good news and maybe giving hope to someone in their first few days as well that you can not only get through it but actually enjoy yourself too! This site and everyone on it has been a god send, I am now about an hour away from 72 hours smoke free and even though I know I have to own my quit I still know that without the support I recieved here I probably would have smoked after the incident with my dad, so THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! And sorry about the extra long blog post I'm just really excited lol.
Have a fantastic smoke free day everyone 😃
