Temptation

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I have been struggling today but have stayed close to this site and read as much as I could, and due to that I managed to talk myself out of going out and buying a pack thank god. I got out for a walk and was feeling great about things when I had to deal with my dad. Not to go into too much detail but he will most likely always be a trigger for me and today was especially bad. I actually managed to get away from everyone before I started crying but I think my dad could see I was upset and almost seemed happy about it. I know smoking won't fix this but I'm not used to feeling my emotions like this, I almost never cry and it's making me feel weak and vulnreable and I hate it! On top of the sadness I am angry and stressed about the fact that I will have to see him again later for dinner and I don't know how to handle all this without a cigarette yet. If there is anyone who has dealt with something similar or just has some advice, please let me know because I don't want this to be the reason I go back to smoking and I feel like I am at breaking point