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Still resentful. Need to make a gratitude list and maybe inventory some stuff.

Eric_L.
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Many of my thoughts are weird, negative or useless.  It's hard to do but I try to do thought stopping.

Then their is the other big many, they are the resentments and disagreements and slow burns that I know will bring me back to using in one form or another. 

Those are the ones that I look at and try to reframe into a rational thought.  Specifically, I try to make sure that it is based on objective reality and is goal producing. 

For instance, I had someone at work make a joking comment that I'm not a man because we don't have any kids.  It's burned me for days.  If anything it's forced me to reframe my thinking about my insecurities and masculinity.  So, the new thought is being a man is a function of striving for rational thought and being assertive, I don't agree with this person and at an appropriate time I have the right to express a boundry or not express one.

Once, I get one resentment they seem to collect like dust bunnies.

I'm also, still, irritated by the old drunk asshole that I argued with the other morning.  That one I've started just saying STOP! to it.  Fighting and arguing are a part of life and I'm allowed to make mistakes.

Then, there was the annoying customer in front of me at Tim Horton's this morning that had a small order take forever and had the audacity to look at me as she was having them fix her coffees at the very end because she didn't order right.  🙂  The rational thought is dumbasses abound, we're all here because we ain't all here and it's better to just go with the flow.

Then I got a good chuckle.

I was at the hospital for a doctor appointment.  However, it's Sunday and not Monday.  Oops.  That was why the office was locked.  😄

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