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Update on blog (prayers answered)

elvan
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I returned to work today, I am so exhausted that I cannot keep my eyes open.  Everything was and is a bit of a mess, neither register balanced, (I don't deal well with that).  My boss told me to plan to work 9-3 but then the schedule said 9-3:30 and I asked her why.  She said we close at 3:00 and I told her it has never taken me more than 5 minutes to count down and close...she said that she has to do the deposit herself now and that the floors have to be mopped and things have to be done.  I have never helped with the mopping and clean up and I CAN'T.  I finished at 3:05, as predicted and asked her what she wanted me to do, she said she couldn't think of anything.  My husband had driven me to work so I called him and asked him to pick me up, he got caught in school traffic and did not get there until 3:30.  I told him I will drive myself from now on so I can leave when I am ready....NOT a good way to start the year.  Oh well, I loved seeing the kids, loved reconnecting but now I am going to bed, it is just 7:45, I am too tired to stay upright.

Thank you all for the support, I appreciate each one of you more than I can say.  My granddaughter is feeling better,my friend's husband wants to save the Celebration of Life for when he can be celebrated as well.  My friend's daughter suggested that if I wanted to bring something that beer and cigarettes would be welcomed. That is NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.

Sometimes, I am completely blown away by the expectations of others

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.