NOPE NOPE NOPE

[Terri103]

This was my mantra last night.   I am grateful to EX for learning this.  I was as close to smoking as I could get.   Thank you all my wonderful friends for your caring spirits.  It means the world to me that I matter.  This IS my home, my family.  And you all matter to me.  I'm feeling emotionally weak and vulnerable.  The depression is an enemy and keeps me from loving myself, keeps me from realizing I matter to me.   When something like yesterday happened, what little self-worth I have flies out the window.  They were not selfish or mean spirited.  I just didn't occur to them.  A team of 8.  Not one of the other 7 thought to call???   So it's that I was so invisible.   I need to work on me and find a way that I can get by on complimenting myself, appreciating myself.  Not expect anything from the outside.   Anyway, you all got me through this.  I am still an EX with 106? DOF.  

I DID this!  This is my quit.  Everything around me is in shambles, but I am in control of this.  I OWN this quit.  

((((( My precious EXers ))))))