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Share your quitting journey

Help. And how does it really matter.

Terri103
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I deal with don't matter and don't count anyway.  And I also have a bad boss.  I was forgotten, not included in a small group lunch that my absence was not even noticed today.  I feel very hurt and just reminded that I don't mean anything.  

I want to smoke.  Only because it soothes me.  I know it won't fix anything.  I'm just asking because so what.  I start again at day one.  But in meantime I am self soothed.  So seriously what is one day except for starting the recount.   I don't matter.  I don't count.  And I have to care for myself.  I am supposed to be true to myself.   

I hurt very bad and I have once again told you all how weak I am and that I can't be good for anyone else let alone me.   

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