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Am I a Fool or What?-1

JACKIE1-25-15
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Sorry for the suspense folks. Just trying to hold a thought.  This is how the story goes... Hope I have it in correct order.  I have a friend that is a smoker.  When I first quit I avoided anyone that smoked.as much as possible  Yes, I have seen them before and they have smoked but I have asked them to put away their cigarettes when they visit my home. .Recently he moved in to an new apartment and I have been helping him to get settled.  Yesterday the request was to help with seasoning/prepping a chicken.  So I went over and as time progressed he pulled out a cigarette.  As he did I got up and he says, Oh I forgot that you quit smoking.  I said don't worry, I know how to step away.  So I took it upon myself to go outside downstairs.  So in the next two or three minutes he comes outside where I am and stands beside me smoking,blowing the smoke in my direction or the smoke was coming that way.  I don't know.  So he says you have quit for awhile,that his smoking should not bother me.  I told him that was ludricrus (sp)  So I stepped to the other side of him so the smoke would not be blowing my way.  So I am explaining to him that I have to protect my quit.  We went back and forth about addiction. Of course not being in agreement.  Suddenly somehow I don't know if I bumped into him or what   The next thing I know I am getting burnt with the cigarette butt,  He says oh I am sorry, that is going to leave a mark.  Yes it hurt. I left carressing the burn.  Omen, I said to myself that this was a sign not to be around him because he does not care about me.  So I sent him a message that until I am stronger that I would not be around him.  I have not gotten any response.  Sometimes you have to let people places and things go.  I am done I think he wanted to borrow some money anyway. I am glad I no longer accept whatever comes along.  Always giving and not recieiving.  Maybe I should be glad it happened.  I am still proud of myself that I did not become angry.  I see I have really changed.   Smoking did not help me with anger management. . I smoked over 40 years and never burned myself. I now have a cute blister on my arm.  Shucks!!!! You all have a great day.  I am going to try and get some fishing in.

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Lay aside every weight that may be slowing you down. Make up your mind not to allow doubt cause you to stumble. You can do this! Do not allow fear , False Expectations Appearing Real to hold you down. You can do this! Break the chains of addiction, forgive yourself for ever smoking. move forward and start loving yourself more each day by staying smokefree. Put aside worry, anxiety, depression, any EXcuse that you would use to not get in or stay in the race of freedom. Take one day at a time, one step if necessary. Run the race diligently, steady and sure with endurance. Believe that you can. Keep your eye on the prize. Hang tough, stay close, be mindful, never give in, never give up.