Share your quitting journey
I was 18 years old before I even tried a puff of a cigarette! I had thought "I sure don't want to be smelly and stuck like mom and dad are". But the peer pressure when I would go to parties was too much. So, I smoked at parties. A pack would last me forever!
Pretty soon the pack would only last a week, then it was 2 packs a week and so on, and so on until at some point I was smoking 2 packs per DAY. My life revolved around when/how/where to smoke. Many years ago a person could smoke anywhere. I think it was harder for a non-smoker to find a smoke free spot then it is now for a smoker to find a place they can smoke.
I got where I hated the smoking. I smelled, my clothes smelled.
OH, I tried to quit....but my willpower was not strong enough to have it last more than a couple of days. I didn't understand how others could quit when I couldn't. "Sharon, you are just weak!" is what I would tell myself. Even if I went a couple of months (whoop dee doo!) it didn't last.
In June, 2013 I came here (had been here in 2009 but didn't stay) and decided I would do this. I set my date for the next day (after all I was "ready") and admin said "no, wait...learn more about the addiction...do the steps". I didn't think I needed to but I gave in and did the reading, the steps, the tracking. OH, I read and read on the blogs. Loved hearing how happy people were in their quit....but there was a part of me that really believed I couldn't/wouldn't do it.
Then 1 day. A word came up....it got stuck in my head and I began to believe it!
I had a choice......yup, a choice! I was an addict (that part had got to me a few days earlier) AND I had a choice to continue with my smoking OR I could do the work and believe in this group and I could make a CHOICE to not smoke! (Please see and read Giulia's blog from yesterday!)
So, now......here I am.......
Celebrating 700 DAYS OF FREEDOM!
Yes ME!!!
And I'm happy, I'm convicted and dedicated in my Quit.
I want you to believe this is possible for YOU!
So celebrate with me please.
And love to all of you that have helped me get to today!
Sharon
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