Hi ....I should be feeling proud of my 141 days quit but instead I feelnbad because I have been thinking a lot about smoking and wanting to smoke again. I have been having personal problems and I know smoking won't change them or solve them but I still feel like what is the point in quitting? I really feel like my main reason for not smoking right now is because of all of you on Ex. Everyone here has helped me maintain my quit and I love all of you I didn't want to even tell any of you how I am feeling I thought I could just start smoking again and just disappear off of this site forever. I am feeling really down and it is not like I am having a crave that is uncontrollable I know I have a choice I just miss the act of smoking. I will not smoke even though I feel like it I am hoping to change my mind! I love all of you elders and I do not want to be a bad example to the newbies. Tomorrow is another new day may my mind be renewed by the Spirit in Jesus Christ my Lord! .....Amen