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141 days

bonniebee
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Hi ....I should be feeling proud of my 141 days quit but instead I feelnbad because I have been thinking a lot about smoking and wanting to smoke again. I have been having personal problems and I know smoking won't change them or solve them but I still feel like what is the point in quitting? I really feel like my main reason for not smoking right now is because of all of you on Ex. Everyone here has helped me maintain my quit and I love all of you I didn't want to even tell any of you how I am feeling I thought I could just start smoking again and just disappear off of this site forever. I am feeling really down and it is not like I am having a crave that is uncontrollable I know I have a choice I just miss the act of smoking. I will not smoke even though I feel like it I am hoping to change my mind! I love all of you elders and I do not want to be a bad example to the newbies. Tomorrow is another new day may my mind be renewed by the Spirit in Jesus Christ my Lord! .....Amen
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I am the Mother of 4 children , a Grandmother and Great Grandmother . I am a retired LNA /CNA and I live in South Western New Hampshire . I am a native of Martha's Vineyard Island . My room mate Karen and I have 6 pets : Two dogs Lily and Jonah, one cat Olivia, two bunnies Lila and Emma and one guinea pig Allie . I enjoy reading ,knitting, walking, especially in the woods, at the river or the beach I also like taking photographs with my camera . I miss my family and my Island .