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Why slipping is not an option...for ME

elvan
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I have thought about this a lot because it seems that some people really struggle and come and go and sometimes just plain go.  I was a serial quitter myself so I know what they are going through at least up to a point.  Things changed for me when I quit the last time, my forever quit.  Why?  Well, I could say it is because my breathing got so bad and really hasn’t ever come back to normal or I could say that I got so sick of failing that I decided I wasn’t going to do it this time.  Those certainly are reasons but the biggest reason is all of you.  From the newest to the oldest, the people who have been here and told their stories, who have supported me through some pretty dark times, those of you who have come and gone and come back again.  It would seriously break my heart to be someone you counted on, someone you thought HAD this and then let you down.  Yes, I would be letting myself and my family down but my EX family would be reeling.  I know that when other people have slipped that I have found MYSELF reeling. It makes me so sad to think they have to start over, clearly they WANT to quit.  I would be so embarrassed to tell people that I gave up and started smoking again, God knows I have done it before. This quit is different, at least in part, because of YOU and so my dear friends, my EX family, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, my kids and grandkids thank you, my sisters and brothers thank you, my husband thanks you, my friends thank you.  I am SO glad that I quit smoking, so glad that I am on this journey with all of you.

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.