Greetings, all -- I realized I've been coming here to make comments but haven't written a blog for a few days and I thought I'd get you caught up on what's going on here. The quit is solid -- although with the really rainy weather we've had I found that there were more memories of smoking, but I also realize that I smoked for over half a century -- I certainly couldn't expect it to be wiped from my brain in 6 months! So I don't get upset about those memories. i acknowledge them and -- of course you all know what I say: I DON"T DO THAT ANYMORE!
Work has improved. I had put together the notebook with everything I need to know about these agreements, and I got one on Thursday, worked very hard on it, checked it twice (well, probably more than twice -- I was a little anxious) and on Friday my boss said "good job." I was quite relieved. The next couple shouldn't be any harder than this one was, and I am hopeful that this will put the losing my job issue to rest. I really hope so.
I think I've already mentioned that I'm having the neuropsychological testing on July 16, and will get the results the following week. I've already decided that if there isn't something going on neurologically, then I must be somehow sabatoging myself, and I will have to deal with that -- it certainly isn't something I'm consciously doing, but it's either neurological or psychological. At any rate, I will wait for the results of the testing and take if from there.
Other than that things are quiet. I really love having my own space, being able to do what I want and making my own choices after a lifetime of letting others have that power. It feels good.
So my dear friends -- I love you all and wish you very sweet dreams!
