So tired of being in "in between land"....smoking but always trying to quit....then smoking....
I truly can't stand to plan this any longer. Here is my final decision: Either I quit smoking by the end of this weekend (Sunday 11:59pm est), or I find a way to peacefully accept continuing to be a smoker.....
Sounds dumb, maybe...but that's it, it's all I can stand...it's all the time and energy and disappointment that I am willing to devote to this....so many days promising myself to quit, and failing at it....I'm done....in between land is stealing much more of my valuable time then simply smoking alone does....so the ultimatum has been handed out to myself from myself. Enough....a billion attempts....enough...
