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happy on demand! dead on arrival:(

rainbow2
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i woke up today feeling unusually fine so i did not wear the patch. by afternoon had a headache...by 9pm was ready to reach for a piece of nicotine gum because i felt so sad about how angry i got at my kids (out of proportion angry) and i hate to think im gonna be this mother when im not:( i hate nicotine for doing this to me. i talked myself out of the gum and put the patch back on eventhough ill be taking it back off soon. when i go to bed. but it did take the edge of somehow. i dont feel sooo happy but i can work better with patch than with no patch!

i feel i want to chew the gum and be happy on demand..so i can lift myself when duty calls...when i need to be alert happy there for kids...etc...and i feel kind of sad that i cant anymore....if i do im afraid ill have worse problems than allergies in my mouth, eventhough no dr said that i must quit gum...i feel its had a negative effect on me.

i promised myself to make it up to the kids tom by being the nicest mum and perhaps explaining to them why i was so angry. i feel its not fair for anyone to be that down depressed and miserable and angry,,,esp not around kids and spouse...when i get off nicotine for good my number one priority will be to try not to hurt the ones i love the most bc really thats all i care about.

by way of background. i have been quit from cigarettes for 2.5 years. i ve been on nicotine gum eversince.. lateley been sufering from burning mouth and throat and some oral allergies and histamine intolerance and that is why im trying to get off the gum and off nicotine hopefully. been off the gum and on low dose patch for a little over a week now.

thanks for listenening

R xx

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