abbreviated sleep last night and had to work early. anxiety ocd kinda strong today. texted some freinds about my thinking and finally got myself to a place where (even if i dont necessarily believe it) the thought went thru my head that i'm right where god wants me and all i have to do is the next right thing. some days are better than others. highlight of the day is playing video games with my nephews that i am ignoring to write this.