Hi all, man, it is good to be a nonsmoker. I have so much more time it seems, and I feel less like I have to rush around. I never realized how much time and energy it took to smoke without my children knowing. How much planning i actually put into ensuring that I could and would have access to my nicotine regardless of anything. I often would chainsmoke 2-3 cigs at home before taking them to their ballet class, spray perfume,and gargle mouthwash. Then we leave. I was so ashamed of my smoking. Yet as soon as we got home, I would turn on the tv and run back outside to chainsmoke two more.
Today i did not do any of that. Because I don't do that anymore. I am a nonsmoker. I only brushed my teeth once this morning. I did not wear perfume. I left the tv off when we came home and the three of us made a fruit smoothie together. It is good to be a nonsmoker. I feel proud of everything I did this morning, not ashamed.
Don't get me wrong. I am still having cravings from the little monster in my stomach(hey I did my reading elders!!!), but I know that the only solution is to never ever smoke again. I will protect my quit. This is my forever quit. I hate smoking. I dont want to smoke. I dont like smoking. Thanks for reading this friends. You all keep my thoughts on track 🙂
