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Here's hoping the day ends better than it started

elvan
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Oh for crying out loud.  I just had to share how my day started.  I tried to pull my covers up so I could go back to sleep.  They were not moving easily so I pulled hard and lost my grip.  I punched myself in the bottom lip with my thumb nail.  The pillow was literally covered with blood.  I got up and put a cold wash cloth on and fed the cat and went back to bed.  Of course, I could not fall back to sleep because it hurt and I was annoyed that it happened.  I went to the house to look for things today, came home and took a shower and looked in the mirror for the first time since I got up.  I have a nickel sized dark purple mark on my lower lip.  It looks like a birthmark.  It is sore, has been all day but this is the first time I actually LOOKED at it.  I go back to work Tuesday, I am sure people will ask what happened to my lip, just imagine the looks I will get when I tell them I punched myself in the face.  Some days just start out with a different twist.  

I do believe I will go to bed now and hopefully not do any MORE damage to myself.  I did change my sheets so I get to climb into a nice, clean bed.

Hope you all enjoyed your weekend! I love you so much.

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.