So, I've tried quitting a gazillion times.....This last 12 months, I've really noticed the need to quit and the desire and want to do so and I"ve tried several times to do it 'on my own'...I have come to realize that this addiction is bigger then I(meaning my own willpower) and i can NOT do it on my own totally and that that's been my problem.
In the times I've quit, I've come to realize the points as to when i slip-up and end up smoking, as to the 'triggers'....it has been 'stress' and the MOST recent was feelings of 'being blue'. What I mean about being blue, is when I get all moody with my kids and also with this wonderful man that walked up into my life about 4 months ago....He is a former smoker himself.....I've noticed when I'm around him which has become MORE frequent over the course of time as we are becoming a little closer day-by-day, well that moodiness kicks in and I do NOT like that part-I HATE IT...So now it's like I don't just see it when i'm around my children, but also around someone who shows me good things-like respect, appreciation, support, patience, etc.....I definitely don't 'mean to/intend to' be moody with him...I am growing to really care alot about him like I do my own children you see....and so like with my children, the same with him, I'll feel so bad about how I treat him in this moodiness state and because he's an ex smoker himself-I do NOT smoke around him because I have this respect for him, oddly, to where I will NOT light up at all when he's around..so then when he's gone, my mind will cycle around my conscious and like with my children-as I go through the same cycle with them-I'll feel so lousy about it, I end up lighting up!
So I found this program and I'm hoping that by working through this, a day at a time, my quit date of march 20th will be my date to come to pass on this.
I have found nicotine gum is my favorite method, because after having tried a gazillion times to quit, it is what i 'like' the best of all the stop smoking aides out there.
I really need help with this, and realize i cannot do this on my own and I want the help. I am glad to have found this program/website.
