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Day 59 and WOW I am a nonsmoker for sure!

djmurray
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Okay, this is going to be kind of a long blog.  Last September I fell and sprained my ankle, a tendon in my foot and fractured two bones.  I was on pain meds and really couldn't work effectively so I ended up spending two months at home on Workers Comp.  During that time I made the ridiculous decision to purchase an 8-week old Chihuahua.  She was cute as a button and impossible to potty train.  I kept her for about a month and then my daughter took her.  My carpet in my condo was a mess.  So having gotten a bit of a windfall this month with my tax refund, I arranged for Sears to come and clean my carpets.  They were to be here this afternoon.  I called my downstairs neighbor, a lovely elderly woman, to give her a heads up that I was having the carpeting cleaned today and it would probably be very noisy.  She said thanks for the heads up and I was going out so I'll just stay out a little longer. 

I won't even go into the things this company screwed up leading up to today, but suffice it to say that I had to take the initiative to get it straightened out.  I was told last night that I would be the second afternoon appointment so they should be here around 3.  I got up this morning and removed everything from every surface in my living room -- books off bookshelves, etc. so that they could more easily move the furniture for the cleaning.  At 3:30 I called the company to see where things were, and the guy I spoke to said that they were running late.  I had plans for this evening and this was not working out well at all.  He said that a manager would call me in a few minutes.  I waited 45 minutes and called again.  Now I was angry!  No call, no carpet cleaners -- what??  The woman I spoke to said well, we can be there any time up to 6 p.m.  (which in my book is NOT afternoon, but whatever) she put me on hold and came back and said that she just learned from the dispatcher that they were not going to be able to do my place today at all.  Now I was yelling angry (which, I swear, I don't get more than twice every DECADE!)  I said I want the first available appointment in which I can be the first one on the list for a morning appointment.  She said I can give you a mornign appointmet on Wednesday, but I can't guarantee that you'll be first.  My response?  OH YES YOU CAN GUARANTEE IT BECAUSE YOU'RE GOING TO PUT A NOTE ON THAT RESERVATION THAT SAYS MUST BE FIRST APPOINTMENT BECAUSE WE COMPLETELY DISSED HER ON SATURDAY. 

i was shaking mad.  Now, you may be saying okay, that wasn't pleasant, but why are you telling us this?  Fair question, but the awesome, totally wonderful thing about this is that I NEVER ONCE THOUGHT OF SMOKING!  IT DIDN'T EVEN OCCUR TO ME TO GRAB A CIGARETTE.  I cannot tell you how much joy that brings me.  This was a level of emotion that I don't experience very often, and it has a completely physiological effect on me.  I have NEVER since I was 13 years old (53 years ago) gottten angry and not immediately lit up.  And chain smoked.    So not even thinking about smoking, not having even the tiniest crave is HUGE.  I got so excited about that and I went to bingo tonight with my friends and we laughed a lot.   Also amazingly I have minimized the physiological effects that anger has always brought to me (which usually lasted half a day or more) and did it without a cigarette (or 20 cigarettes, more likely).

So I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I am a nonsmoker.  This was the very best test I could possibly have and I passed with flying colors.  Yay Me!

Thanks for getting through this very long blog to the good part!

Love you all!

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