I live a long way from the states, my mom is in a nursing home in NJ, after my sister died the last time I was there in May of 2013, Its only me left. I wish I could be there, but I can't right now. I left her and I knew it might be the last time I saw her. It was a good thing I did come home, my husband died a few months after I returned home. Well anyway that was in 2013.
Now it is 2015, 1 yr and 9 months after my sister, and 1 yr and almost 2 months after my husband, its difficult sometimes still, but getting better.
My mom is not doing well, her skin is breaking down at a pace they can't do anything about, she edema, and she is being tube fed, which they are cutting down because she is gaining weight and its unhealthy, she is on hospice, and of course is having skin tears and wounds. They say she doesn't seem to be in pain or to be uncomfortable. My mom can't speak or I should say not so anyone could understand her and she cannot walk, well she could have if she had wanted to but with her dementia she forgot.
Dementia and Alzemers must be some of the worst diseases of mankind. I know other people suffer from terrible things, cancer and others, but at least they still have their minds, they can remember who they are and the people around them. But I don't know if that is good or bad, I haven't suffered from the pain of cancer, I don't know what it is to know that tomorrow could be my last day on earth.
What I do know is that some cancer can be prevented, along with some lung diseases.
I don't know why we are here or what our purpose is. I don't know about heaven or hell. I don't know if God exists. I don't know if there is a life after death, or if reincarnation is real.
What I know is that I am here now and what I do now is what matters.
I hope I will be able to see my mom again before she dies. I hope life exists after death and I can see all of them again. It would be nice if everyone just stopped and really thought for moment.
If you smoke please stop, if you have stopped keep going, we are only here for a second, lets make it better.
I guess that is it for now, I could go on, but that would be just sad
