Quit date 7 days

[doxiemama]

I'm really, really getting nervous about this now. I have never even tried to quit before, so I'm already setting myself up for failure.  ( thinking I'll never be able to do this) I've been reading like a mad women, sticking close to the site, going on every site that someone recommends, practicing triggers, and it seems after I read it makes me feel like I need to go out and smoke more.  Am I doing this, because I mentally know that next Saturday, I need to stop, or am I not ready to succeed like all of you. I'm thinking I should move the date, but then I'll just keep moving the date. I've got to do this.  I'm so envious of all of you, your so lucky to be able to do this, I'm so jealous.  This is hard, and I want to be on your side of the fence, but I'm scared, I will never be. I've read about the fear, and I have the fear, not quite sure I can beat that. My fear should be of dying from these things, what the heck is wrong with me. Thanks for listening, Debbi